I'm not a relationship expert, so I'm not sure when two people should call it quits. Is love enough to sustain a relationship or are there other things that need to be taken in consideration? When do you know that the fights are already too much? That yes, you are happy with each other but also miserable at the same time. Is that possible? When do you know that enough is enough?
Ever since we were together, we were prone to having misunderstandings. Though our nights would be spent in tears, we'd always be okay once the morning light comes. I always believed that our clashes was the product of us being the eldest in our respective families. I once learned in class that it's an important factor to consider when you are in a relationship. Apparently, we might not be able to see eye to eye because we are used to being dominant, being the leader. We do not know how to back down because we are too stuck on the fact that only one of us could get what he or she wanted.
Though it may not be such a big deal, I have a feeling our one-year age gap also plays a role in our fights. They say girls mature faster than boys. I also had a teacher back in high school who told the girls that we should look for an older man when the time was right. That way, your level of maturity would somehow even up. The problem with dealing with a younger boy or one that is of your age is that there's a big chance that he doesn't have the same mindset as you. There's a tendency that he'll be a wee bit childish compared to his female partner. This is one thing that I always had to struggle with in our relationship. I try to talk with reason, but I eventually stoop down his level because he is easily swayed by his emotions.
I'm tired of crying. Is there such a relationship where in no tears are shed? I didn't want to throw away almost three years of being together, (albeit on and off) but I just can't take it anymore. I'd rather be unhappy because I lost him than feeling that way while I'm with him. Don't get me wrong though. When we are okay, it's like 7th Heaven. My mother once told me that he and I were miserable when we were apart, but then we were happiest in each other's arms. I honestly do not know what should be done. I do not know if I did the right thing. I love him, but I'm tired. I want to be with him, but I do not want to fight anymore.
Our relationship must be a lost cause. :(
If by chance you're reading this, I still love you, baby. I always will. I just do not know how we can stay together without causing nuclear wars whenever we fight.