"Being fearless isn't being 100% unafraid. It's being terrified, but you jump anyway." - Taylor Swift
Like a lot of other girls, Taylor has always been an inspiration to me in almost every aspect of my life. Her music kept me company in my joys and sorrows. Her songs stood as the soundtrack of my love-struck moments as well as my heartbreaks. She has said a lot of great lines, but out of all of them, I think the one above hits closest to home.
I'm not sure if most of the people who know me would agree, but I'm not the fearless type. On the contrary, I have a lot of fears and anxieties. These little demons cripple me from time to time and cause me to give up easily. I was born a pessimist. I'm not really sure how that happened, but I have a very negative outlook on life. It's difficult to control the things that eat me up from the inside, but I have learned that you can't let them get the best of you. You can't give in to your fears without even trying. Quitting maybe the easiest option, but it really won't get you through life. You'll remain stagnant while everything and everyone will continue to move on. Because of these realizations, I try my best to be fearless whenever I can.
Creating this blog is my way of being fearless. It symbolizes how I want to break away from my attachment to the past. You see, I have this odd fondness for things that are long-gone. I love to lose myself in past moments and memories. It's like traveling to me, only I do it in my mind. Sometimes, I fear as if I might get stuck in the past and forget the present. Of course, my stubbornness still gets the best of me and I end up reminiscing once again. There are too many things in my old blog that I need to let go. There's just too much emotional baggage there and I realized that I can't keep dragging them with me all of my life. It's time to break free from them once and for all.
Also, this blog is like a personal challenge to myself. I have a really short attention span and a tendency to start things without any intention of finishing them. This time, things will be different. I may be away sometimes, but I'll make it a point to update this blog whenever I can. Through this blog, I wish to change for the better and to let go of bad habits. It may be hard at first, but I'll manage. So to everyone who decides to read my blog, please bear with me. I promise to try to write sensible posts on top of all the rants. :)